Day 2

Today was weird.

I woke up around 7:30, hung around for a little bit, then worked on suitcases for an hour. It was actually really productive. I maintain that about 99% of the actual sentences I wrote today are worthless, but I think I have the feel of the piece? And I like that. I feel that it is really moving forward and changing. It's really difficult to write, and I'm not exactly sure what I want the story to be, but I'll get there. Right now most of what I'm doing is forcing myself to write and seeing where that takes me.

After that I ate and went to school. Before I could start work again I had a meeting during break and english class. I'm really glad I kept english. Not only will it be helpful as I move on, but I can't imagine not taking english while at school. I always look forward to it.

The period after english I read The Ones Who Walk Away From Omelas and worked on blue. Reading omelas made me more sure of what I want to do with the quiet story, but I'm still not entirely sure. I talked to Mr Newman later in the day and he recommended a book to read to give me a better idea of how to treat it.

Blue is proving to be difficult. Something I really admire about Kurt Vonnegut's stories is that he doesn't always outright explain to you the ways of the world he is writing about; you just get them as you go. That's what I want to try and do here, but I'm not sure how. I have two different beginnings and both of them feel stilted. Like suitcase, I'm just writing and seeing where I go at this point. I don't expect much. A lot of writing that I end up throwing out and maybe a paragraph that ends up being the basis for the whole story. We'll see.

After school ended, I read more Kurt and spoke with Mr Newman and Ms Franks. As always they were super helpful. Ms Franks reminded me that to make suitcases work I need a definite shift/change somewhere in there. Mr Newman helped out with the survey and recommended I read Einstein's Dreams. I still plan on sending out the survey even though I have my hands full with what I'm writing now. I really want to see if I can write about things pulled from other's experiences, rather than just my own.

I still have yet to make it to a full 5hrs, so tomorrow, ambitiously, I will dedicate an hour of writing time to at least all the pieces that have yet to be touched. I also have yet to develop a routine, but I may be getting there. I don't know. Today was so weird because I don't really know what to do with myself yet. I'm not going to lie, this freedom is a tad overwhelming and I don't know what I am really doing. Right now, I'm just trying to get it done. I don't know what works best yet, but I'll get there. I'm fairly certain this will steadily become less weird.