THE MOST PRODUCTIVE DAY ANYONE HAS EVER HAD EVER

IN CASE YOU CAN'T TELL I GOT THINGS DONE TODAY. YAAAAAAY!!!!!

Today I wrote for 5 hours in a row. It was super intense. I worked on three pieces and out of those three, one is done, one is halfway done, and the other is so goddamn difficult. I think this project is the most difficult thing I have undertaken in all of my 18 years of life.

I really really enjoy writing, but at the same time I don't. On one hand it's super fun, but on the other hand it is really exhausting. It requires a ton of emotional investment and my god is that draining. This is the most vulnerable I've been in my life. Everything has to have emotion behind it otherwise it's awful, but that kind of makes me want to never ever share what I've written with anyone ever. Even if it's a story that could never logically happen, it's personal. I've put time into it; I have strong emotional ties with it. I don't want just anyone to have that access, my god. At this point sharing what I've written outside of a select group of people would feel as indecent as flashing the whole school during chapel.

Today I also thought a lot about pronouns. I really like them. In my organ story the protagonist doesn't have a name. She is just she. I think it makes her more accessible, personal.

Those are the only thoughts for today. I'm tired. Goodnight.